9Tuesday, June 20, 2006

That's What Friends are For - Pop Idol

The clip above shows that even when they are competing, they will still remain as friends. Well, on stage >< I dunno what goes on backstage ... lol

True Friends. They are the people who share a strong mutual understanding and bond with you. Sympathy and empathy exists in a true friendship. True friends have the tendency to desire what’s the best for you and friends tend to speak the truth with you.

True friends are capable of deep feelings. They are somewhat immeasurable and inexpressible on the whole. You become besties for life and when one person is need great need, the other will come to his or her side.

To me, a true friend is like a brother or sister to me. I am able to share my feelings freely and without hesitation. Whenever I need someone to pour my soul out or to share my happiness with, I look for them. We can quarrel like mad ducks and chickens about even the silliest things, i don't care (well, what friendship does not have its own tribulations, such ordeals ultimately strengthen the bonds with one another) but we know that at the end of the day, we are still the world to the other.

I have many friends (or i think i have) and I do cherish them a lot. I really appreciate their companianships and the laughter than they infect upon me with their lame jokes. These are memories that I will cherish forever.

But then again, sometimes reality sinks in. I know, I know, I like suddenly change the mood of the entry and swing somewhere else. Haha. The thing is that sometimes I feel that most of them are a facade.

Ever since I entered poly, I've met people of all walks of life, every one of them. I befriended them but two years one, I am sad to say that not all of the ice has thawed yet and there are still certain moments of awkwardness with one another. Haha. I dunno why too. But thank god, I've thawed the ice with a couple of people and whenever I see them, I just light up and start mumbling incessant rubbish at them.

Perhaps, I'm trying too hard to make friends. More friends doesn't lead to more security and happiness, its the quality of friendship that you have. Usually, 1,2 or perhaps 4 is good enough. I have this tendency to make all of my friendship work but while I attempt to do so and warm up to the person, I have to abandon it because I have too many friends. So little time for everyone. I also realize that in doing so, I may offend the person without knowing it.

Talking about offending people. I have this bloody flaw of being too oblivious of my surroundings. Whenever I do things, I take great pain and consideration before making a move but ALMOST EVERY SINGLE TIME ... i get scrutinized by people! What I do is wrong, its incorrect, all the blasphemy! I HATE IT! Sometimes, it’s really not my fault, I swear. I do things with a purpose, a righteous purpose. I never do things that will intend to cause harm or misdeed. People really do make mistakes and I just wish that some people can JUST CUT SOME SLACK with me.

People just have NOTHING BETTER TO DO with their lives. It's pathetic I think.

That is why I tend to shy away from people and retreat into my lovely mouse hole, locking myself from the outside world. It's like you're ready to venture into the open world as I'm a natural introvert but as you take that first step, a huge A-Bomb comes cruising towards you. You freak out and run back into your fortified bunker. I feel sad that people can wrongly malign me. It's a terrible feeling and sometimes you cry your heart out because of it.

Sigh, all I want is happiness. Eternal Happiness, but then again, back to reality, there is no such thing I guess. You have to live with it. No one is 100% happy.

But, the thing is that people in this world should learn to APPRECIATE. People in this world is just plain sad because they like to talk about the bad points of the person instead of seeing the good side of him or her. I've experienced it myself and I have seen other people being scrutinized like that. The worse thing is that I know of some people who have friends who whip out plastic faces when they are in front of him or her but when that poor fellow turns back, his friends begin to contort into psychotic bad-mouthing witches. It's really damn damn sad la.

I really feel that all these inter-school politics are freaking unnecessary. Seriously. People just place upon the problems themselves. There is no problem, yet you make a big hoo-haa over it and then inflating the problem into epic proportions. Whatever for? GET A LIFE LA! This is probably why we have war in this world even though we all call ourselves civilized.

I dunno la. The thing is that, okay I'm going to reveal this to you guys that I have an extremely foul temper. Really, probably inherited from my dad but my tolerance is rock solid, probably inherited from my mom. When there are situations that may irk you, I stay cool, I'd rather solve a problem through a diplomatic approach rather than blowing my cool. I'm taken great pains to restrain myself from exploding through the years and I have succeedd in controlling it. I think resolving an issue is better than forevering criticizing, scrutinizing, bad-mouthing, back-stabbing and all the other foul intentions that you can think off.

Well, my topic was originally about friends but it actually side-tracked again (sorta) but its a little intertwined with one another.

The ultimate thing is that you should always cherish your friends that you have. Always appreciate the things that they do for you. You won't know how precious they are to you until you loose them one day and then you begin to miss them so badly. Never never take advantage of your friends all your a sad sud yourself.

Just do some simple things to cheer up your friends lives. I'm learning to do that cause I care for the friends I have and I want them all to be happy. That's cause sometimes I see them with sulky faces and I just want them to feel better.

As for me, to all my friends out there, I love you guys la. Haha, i know I've said it my previous post but I wanna say it again. Truthfully, I have to SERIOUSLY say that there is still more that can be done to improve some of our friendships. I'm really willing to open up to you guys but are you guys willing to open up to me and give me a chance? I mean, what's there to lose. Let's thrash that boundary between us and make the world a happier place.

ONE MORE TIME! Friends are very special people who will always be there for you and to make your world a much brighter world to live in. You will never be lonely with you friends. Friends are Forever! *wink*

Anyways, thats all I have to say for now >< Feel free to leave your comments on my taggie if u've read this. I really wanna hear your comments.

*all the vulgarities above were just on the spur of the moment. No harm intended ><
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