9Sunday, February 11, 2007

Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

The rest is still unwritten.

I just realized its 2007. Time just seems to pass so swiftly and 2006 is gone. I would have to say that 2006 has been a mind-opening and personally challenging year for me.

I doubt anyone can really comprehend what I have experienced. A myriad of episodes that really made me trudged and reached much further than I could have ever imagined. Imagine being engulfed in darkness and you take a step forward, leaving that sacred comfort zone of yours and grasp your hand into nothingness, you trust only yourself, taking a leap of faith to find out what more is there in store for you.

Through my very eyes, I have exposed myself to the many angles and perspectives of life. I have seen the many colors and faces of people, culture and life. I tried to understand how life functions, how people everywhere perceive their lives and what constitutes their ideology.

I have had countless of obstacles besieged upon me and through these challenges, I’ve experienced pinnacles and at the same time, the uglier side to life. I have seen how people react to them and how they ingeniously find solutions to solve them and alternatively, break down in the furry of predicaments. I even took another chance exploring love and emotions, trying my best to understand its meaning. I was astonished as well, having seen people finding their purpose in life, their destinies, through love itself.

Our destinies, what are they? Have you ever realized your purpose in life?
This past year, I’ve seen people around me rise up to their destinies and some, who apparently just crumble apart into nothingness. You see, people create their own destinies, I, for one, am different. I have a destiny forced upon me. Since the day I was brought into this world, the first breathe of air that I took in, I already had a weight of responsibilities thrusted upon me.

I felt utterly lost on realizing that fact. Was that really my destiny? Could I just deny myself from the path chosen for me, could I just pave my own path? I had no direction in life. I was confused with conflicting emotions in me. It was a raging storm that I came to experience. I spent countless days and nights pondering about it. Is it even necessary to worry about such stuff? Yes, it was to me. I wanted to have clear direction in my life. I wanted to know so badly what I wanted to do.

After much soul-searching (almost 12 months of it), I came to realize that I too can shape my own destiny. I am living for myself. Whatever has been thrusted upon me is just secondary to my purpose in life. I can choose to fulfill them (in which I definitely will) and I will pursue them MY way.

Well, I have only taken a few small steps on my journey in life, but I know what I'm going to do, I'm going to be the AUTHOR of my own life and when the time comes, I will definitely face my destiny. I will not run away from it because denial itself is the inability to fulfill. I am going to step out of my comfort zone, rise up to that challenge and work towards it.

Everyone should also do some soul-searching when possible. Become more aware of yourself and your surroundings. Find your REAL wants in life and achieve your goals that will truly make you happy in life. Yes, it may difficult but trust me, when you do find your destiny in life; you'll know what I mean.

So, was that leap of faith worth it for me?

HELL YES.

How about you? Will you make that leap?
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