9Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Someday We'll Know - Mandy Moore & Jonathan Foreman

This is one of my favorite songs. I fell in love with it when Jane and Levin first sang this song to me. It's a very deep song, I feel. There's no MTV to this song so I have a video trailing Troy & Gabriella from High School Musical =)


The dust storm has settled, it seems.
Days of melancholy; my tears have desiccated.
I can walk, yet my grief makes me frail.

It’s been a long, arduous journey.
The chaos I started to edge out my anxiety.
I won my battle, but I guess I lost a war.

A handshake to proclaim peace,
Yet, an ego I just can’t swallow.
I brushed off my only chance,

I walked away.

Now, a hole gapes in my heart.
A fissure that I inflicted upon myself.
I’ve only got myself to blame.

Albeit the warm and compassionate environs,
Loneliness is my only companion.
A hollow soul, that’s what I am.

All I have now is time.
Let it heal, please.

It's been a while since I blogged my life.
I've had my happiest moments these months back.

So many wonderful friends that I love to pieces,
the only people that I can cling onto for happiness.

They're just simply my life =)
I love my clique.

Thank you.

Swimming again today. It's been a habit for me to swim everyday if I can, even when there's no training. My coach thinks I should just move in with the fishes. Haha. My worries just seem to disintegrate whenever I feel the soothing water. Just fifty laps a day and I feel so much better.

Oh, and a family of monkeys invaded the pool today. Haha. the baby monkeys were just so cute. Haha. But they stink, terribly. =X

A string of problems again these few days. I've been totally zoning out every now and then, just trying to evade from my miseries. I've never felt so low in my life. I just wish someone could understand my predicaments. But I'm selfish too I guess, I have to fend for myself too. I shouldn't wait for someone to carry me in his or her arms and tell me everything will be fine. This is the real world, and I'll face it.

Oh, and I've been crazy over polo tees. I'm going shopping soon. It's been a millenia since I really went on a shopping spree. Now, perhaps that will just elevate all my worries away. Besides, my wardrobe is getting rather lackluster. I need a makeover.

I finally got a job. Haha. As a New Urban Male Sales Ambassador. Stop saying its gay ok? Haha. It's really a fun company to work with. All my colleagues are like the most crazy bastards I've known, always ogling at girls non-stop and dancing to the song, thriller, immitating MJ. Anwyays, I'm really there to gain experience and know more friends. Money is secondary. Haha, at least people will stop mocking me as a rich kid who takes life for granted. Cause I don't, and I'm proving it to you guys, and myself too.

Anyways, sigh. I quarreled with my mom this morning. She insisted on my leaving the country again and this time I simply refused. She was so nice I think. She even booked first class tickets for us again. I felt so guilty and everything. I didn't even said goodbye to her. I really miss my mom. Everytime, I have troubles, I look for her. She's my friend and I'm her friend too. I know we're always be there for each other.

It's just that I'm seeing both of my parents lesser and lesser. Ever since my grandfather passed away a couple of weeks back, my dad took over as chairman and my mom needs to give my dad her 100% support. My parents are like flying everywhere now. I understand their duties and obligations because it's not a easy feat, but I just need them to be here with me, just for a minute.

Mom, If you read this, I just want to say I really love you and that I'm so sorry.

It's 8pm now. I don't know where everyone is. I guess I'll just wander about at orchard road again. I find it very comforting to walk alone, around orchard road. Haha. No rushing for this and that, no planning, no nothing. Just me and my lovely feet. I do what I want.

Everyone, have a great week ahead.
May the sun just shine all week long =)
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